Sorry for my lack of updates dear journie, things such as allowing my life to be dominated by a little MMO called Age of Conan. I bold it because I'm so addicted to it, and I bold because I want you to Google it. I also bold for the mere hope of getting other people addicted to it and pray that I won't get hunted down by mobs of angry people whom which I led into their untimely addiction of AoC.

Anyhow, now to the main purpose of this entry; after being drawn into AoC thanks to my brother, upon playing it I have learnt many things that being:

1. You can really be always youthful.
2. MMO's really bring out youth in people.
3. It is really easy for a dog to be human online.

In short, I have learnt that no matter how old you may be in real life, on the internet you can be as young as you want to be. Although I'm sure that everyone already knows you can portray yourself as almost anyone online - MMO's especially, this is the first time I've ever seen people whom I thought would never bother with something as trivial as a computer game, play and act completely - well, young I guess. Hehe, and now I end this part of my entry with a quote, which I find highly amusing.

"On the Internet, nobody knows you're a dog."
- Peter Steiner

Setting aside my obsession, I also have a new layout courtesy of "Free Layouts" full of Supernaturally goodness. ;o I seriously hope that they didn't end the season with *coughdeandyingcough*

Hehe, okie that's all from me.

Taa~

I thought the occasion seemed nice to write a letter to myself- or parts of my body to be more precise, as I slowly make my transformation into a prehistoric creature. ;]

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Dear Eyes,

I'm sorry I keep damaging you more and more each year, those long hours staring at the computer screen have not done you justice and I apologise for it. I'm aware now that you will never change colour in a super speshal way, except for that one time when you turned a bloodshot red after my brothers performed the snoring orchestra one night. I'm sorry I always ignore you when you tell me you need rest, and when I do listen to you, both my brother I get angry when we lie in bed thinking we could still be playing Age of Conan until the garbage truck comes. Nevertheless, Eyes you are special to me, I pray that I won't continue damaging you as I drain my life away on AoC.

Take care, and happy birthday.

Dear Hair,

I really should take more care with you, I'm sorry I have never really bothered to make you look nice. I always pull you back in that ordinary ponytail and tying you, every tedious morning has proved to be quite a chore. You poof up on me, get caught between doors, and yanked by at least one person or two or four. That dark, dark, dark brown colour has never once been changed, and that's how it'll stay until I'm winkled and old. Hair, you are such a pain to brush, it's like trying to straighten a jungle with balls of tangled hair, sometimes I wish I could just cut you, but then I'll get sad to see you go. I've had so many bad times with you, and yet hair, I wish you all the best and hope that you don't go grey until a very long, long, long, long, long, long, longlonglonglonglonglonglonglong time.

Happy birthday.

Dear Lips,

I've always thought you resembled a fish mouth, but maybe that's just my imagination working there. I've never had a problem with you lips, but I'll have to admit that maybe I should use some Vaseline to cure that dry, peeling problem I keep forgetting to fix. Lips, you've served me well for I have nothing more to say about you, or this could just be an excuse for the fact that I'm starting to lose interest in these series of letters. Wait, scratch that entire sentence.

Happy birthday, dear lips.

Dear Fingers,

Oh fingers, you are long- maybe too long and skinny and I do believe that you may be the most wrinkly thing I've ever took notice of on my entire body. Fingers, you produce narrow skinny writing and type with only one finger on each hand, and now I'm confused if that's something, I should be proud or ashamed of. How long and lanky you are fingers, sending shock to the people who take one glance at you, would I consider you my one distinguishing feature? After all, from you spawned a variety of nicknames all of which I can't help but find absolutely hilarious. Fingers, you make me laugh.

Thank you, happy birthday.

Dear Body,

I'm sorry I've never been bothered to pamper you as much as I should've, I never dress you in designer labels or anything that comes off as 'In' or stylish, most of all I sincerely apologise for going out dressed in what would be considered my pyjamas to the very least. I'm sorry I have never exposed you to how it would feel to have people step on your back in a relaxing manner; I think that's a called a massage. I'm sorry I never stood in front of a mirror, posed in an appealing sort of way, and think to myself 'Damn, girl you're lookin' fine!' However, body I like you in casual clothing, I like how you feel relax to playing games and how you do me hell every dreary Monday morning.

Body, happy birthday.

xx

By the end of this letter, you would've realised that you wasted a couple minutes of your life, and so have I by typing it.

Btw, I would really like to thank all my friends for making my day wonderful on Friday. Somehow, I kinda wish my real birthday was on that day instead. Thank you so much!

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I hate it when people use my style/ideas/nicknames without permission and/or if with permission no credit.

Gosh, I broke off all contact with one said person and yet [IT] continues to copy me. I could rant on for days about said person, but I'd rather not for fear of forgetting everything I just studied. e_e;

Nevertheless, I will get one thing off my chest to [IT.] Your obsession goes over the line of obsessed. Keep in mind that making continuous and simultaneous requests for art/(sue)fics of your (marysue) character paired with said canon of said anime, is selfish and inconsiderate. Moreover, if you are well aware that you are being selfish if your constant requests, then why do you continue to do it?

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On a brighter note, Winter break [<3] is drawing closer and closer.

............But I still don't have Photoshop back. Therefore, this two week break only means watching myself become one with no life as I sit on the computer playing Age of Conan all day.

Sorry about the shortness of this entry and semi-rant, it was originally going to be posted in my DeviantArt journal so I was trying to make it as discrete as possible. I'll most likely be continuing the semi rant (refer to above) once I get the time. I have two exams in the following days, once they are over, I'll be sure to post again; mainly to continue my semi rant.

Oh, and my birthday is on Sunday! I plan to make an entry then! I had plans on writing this entertaining letter to myself or body to be precise, and cross post it at dA just for the sake of it! ;3

I'm pretty sure no one really reads my journal, but I just like having a place where I can feel comfortable to post my rants. Look forward to it, my dear faithful journal.

Sorry I haven't posted that much over the past two weeks was it two weeks? Well my last entry was on the fourth, and today's the 11th. Okay scratch that, sorry for not posting last week, events left me tired and I wasn't in a blogging mood, but I'm here now to babble on about simple nothings. ;3

Today had actually left more tired then usual, of course, anyone would be tired after a long day of school; but today I don't know, everyone including me seemed to have been swept with a wave of exhaustion. I was presuming it was because of the change in weather, for the past few days it's been raining and cold; the exact weather which creatures people like me thrive in. This morning, the area was covered in a thick fog and it was nice and cold! However, it gradually got warmer and I seemed to have also developed a headache after coming out of a double period where all my teacher did was give us a lecture. That was a huge downfall for me, because for the rest of the day my head throbbed like mad. It's like that feeling of having some little midget inside of your head beating away with a hammer, yeah pretty disturbing description, but I've always been horrible describing things. You should see me trying to describe a movie;

"So there's this kid who moved to this new house with his family. At first that kid was a real jerk, but he eventually got better like all typical kid movies." -- Let's stop there. As you can see, it's not a pretty sight. SO, with my headache, I managed to endure my Japanese class, which wasn't so bad, and then I had Religion. You know how in school the majority of times you get choose where you sit, right? My friends and I have this specific spot in Religion, usually that spot isn't so bad; it's like any normal seat you would have in a class. Well, it just so happens that today was a sunny day, and since we sit in the side of room with the windows behind us, both my friends and I had the sun beating against our faces and back the entire lesson.

Don't get me wrong, I don't hate sunlight it's just having the sun shining directly at you can get annoying eventually. Having the sun constantly flaring against me, had actually proved to have a horrible effect. I could've sworn after I got out of that lesson my headache got worse! One of my friends actually asked if I needed to get Panadol, I would've said yes if it didn't involve asking one of the girls from a separate group-- a group that I feel extremely uncomfortable with, so I ended up having to put up with a headache throughout bowling too. (Every Thursday afternoon, instead of having period 5 & 6 our school would have activities, mine is bowling this term! It was originally Ice Skating, but I swapped it for a new experience. ^o^) Luckily, the group I'm in for bowling was happy to take my turns for I just felt wayy to sick from the headache to bring myself to bowl. Instead, I got to sit down and relax while the others bowled! Plus there was the benefit of comfy coaches, music playing, and a chance to get Religion homework out of the way. In the end it wasn't so bad, but you would expect that I second I got home I dashed for the Panadol. xD

OH! And someone made me a Lelouch Lamperouge vector! BEHOLD IT'S AWESOMENESS *O* To be specific, it was a request I made, and that person was nice enough to make me two because I had provided him a range of images to help. How sweet, I really appreciated it! n_n No seriously, isn't it cool? Lelouch is just *DROOL!* Lookit my icon too, you can't tell me he's not droolworthy AND adorable. What? You don't believe me? I BRING YOU PROOF WOMAN, MAN, BOY, GIRL. Ohhhhhhh, Lelouch. @_____@;; <333 Xpy definitely did him justice. I command those who have Deviant Art accounts to go worship him now, I command you in the name of [blank], GO NOW! >o>!

Atlas, I must take my leave! My stomach is beckoning me for some noodles, I think I might've just fallen into a very bad habit. x_x Lately I've been eating noodles every night, sometimes because I am hungry, but the majority of the time I'm just eating for the sake of eating. xD WRONG! I eat because I like eating noodles while watching Samurai Champloo on dvd top off with a widescreen tv, haha. ;D

Ta~

Blew down the doors that let me in~

Heyyyy everyone, I'm here typing this on a Wednesday night one day before Thursday, and that also makes it one day before my piano lesson........Which I didn't practice for. Damn you lazy self, just because it's raining and you felt more hungry than usual for the past three days, you don't neglect your practice for food! I'm mostly likely going to irritate the Dragon Lady aka my piano teacher, and leave her in a bad mood for the rest of day as she sets all the other students on fire.

Uuuu, earlier today okay not quite so earlier today, probably an hour ago perhaps? I found Coldplay's live performance of Viva la Vida!

[n00btube removed the video.]

Their performance was brilliant as always, although Chris's voice sounded a little shaky in some part, but that doesn't matter! It's still as good as ever. Viva la Vida! After hearing that I went to look for another live performance from Coldplay, I think they were singing Don't Panic and it had Jonny sing a verse. Actually, it looks as if I have the video right Here. Woowww, Jonny should really sing more; he has a good voice, yes? Don't Panic is such a good song, I think it was my first Coldplay song, uuuuuuuu how I love it.

Funny thing is, I heard it on one of those earlier Channel Ten commercials, does anyone one remember it? It was wayy back then, in the universe where I knew the majority of Neighbours yeah, that's right, the Neighbours characters. I got sick of that show fast; they killed off so many characters and just keep bringing more and more new ones in. I can recall seeing an ad on it once, and I had no idea who was who anymore, the latest season must've already ended based off the tv guide. I hardly even watch Tv anymore for that matter of fact, this just proves that the computer is my one twu luv. Ahem, let me reword that! I do in fact watch Tv, but only when certain movies that appeal to me are on! Moreover, that's most of the time every Friday, Saturday, or Sunday night on Channel 7 or 9. Now back to Tv, yes, Tv, TEEVEE, it just occurred to me that if say Tv in a certain way it sounds like EEETEEE!

.....Just forget I ever said any of that, At the moment all I know is that Big Brother is back on tv and it's a show which i hate with a passion! WHY WON'T THEY LET IT DIE ALREADY!!? It drags on past its supposed ending time and takes over some of time meant for other shows. I honestly don't understand what's so amusing about watching about of strangers in a house, it doesn't sound interesting at all. My bed beckons to have a body in it now- that just turned out completely wrong, or it doesn't make sense, I thought it made sense, because it made sense in my head, and that doesn't make sense at all, because my head definitely doesn't make sense. I should stop saying it doesn't make sense now, then again my journal is senseless. . .

. . .G'night! ^o^

Thought I'd make an entry since I'm in a talkative um, let me rephrase that, TYPEative mood and I don't exactly feel like going on msn because there's no one I really want to talk to or maybe it's because I have nothing to talk about to the people that are currently online *was appearing offline about a second ago.*

Now that I think about it, there's only like one person which I talk to pretty consistently online and that's my rl friend/otaku buddy. But I see her at school anyway, and personally I prefer talking to her in rl rather than online; I don't know why, maybe it's because of my beyond eccentric way of looking at things my occasional spaz!laugh along with extremely loud 'otaku talk' in public proves that.

Apparently it's a completely different language all together! 101 on otakuism, now that would a good book! How about otakuism for dummies? That would be nice too. Okay, I just realised that was completely off track with the things I was talking about just a paragraph ago.

Re-Re-Rewind

.......You know, it just came to me that whenever I do pop online just to make sure my display picture shows or my new nick shows, I'm usually hammered with a million flashing boxes giving me a seizure on my behalf.

Moral of the story: Offline messaging is the way to go!

Then again, if you are/were a ddr or Stepmania player I'm sure you would be use to a bunch of flashing arrows coming at you, y/n? Alright, that doesn't really make sense since I'm a former ddr player and a couple of days ago became one with no life a stepmania player-- Wooah woahh wooah, 'one with no life' I thought I already was one with no life? Hold that thought, would an otaku be defined as one with no life?

Otaku is the honorific word of Taku (home).

Otaku is extremely negative in meaning as it is used to refer to someone who stays at home all the time and doesn't have a life (no social life, no love life, etc)

Usually an otaku person has nothing better to do with their life so they pass the time by watching anime, playing videogames, surfing the internet (otaku is also used to refer to a nerd/hacker/programmer).

In the Western culture, people confuse otaku to be something positive like "Guru". If you think about it, it's not really good to be called a guru if it means you are a total loser who can't socialize with other people except through the Internet.

Other Japanese words which have been confused by Westerners also include but not limited to: Anime, Manga, etc

otaku no jinsei ha yabai na! (it sucks to live the life of an otaku!)

- Courtesy of Urban Dictionary

The part I bolded out was the part I somewhat agreed with, although not entirely. Well, I was aware that being called an Otaku in the Japanese world would be considered an insult of the highest level, and if you were to translate otaku then it would technically translate to a lifeless (if you really want to harsh) nerd or geek, although I still don't believe that's necessarily true. Nevertheless, I had no idea that an otaku could be referred to as a hacker. With the part I bolded, giving it some thought I'd considered that being somewhat of a stereotypical image. I'm sure a lot of people watch anime, play games, and surf the web just as a hobby or to make myself sound more professional would you rather a 'Recreational Activity.' Just because you do these things doesn't necessarily make you an otaku, y/n? Unless that part was talking about the people who go overboard with those activities then I said nothing.

If you were to ask me to define an otaku in my usual perspective then I would say:

"An otaku is someone who is obsessed with Anime or Manga. Their hobbies usually consist of spending some of their freetime watching Anime or reading Manga. You'll most likely find them at anime conventions cosplaying as their favorite anime/manga character, however not all 'otakus' cosplay."

Although if you do want me to put this in a negative perspective (and not that I really want to, but just for the sake of it) then I would say.

"An otaku is a lifeless nerd/geek who does nothing but watches anime, read manga, surf the web, and play games all. day. long. In some cases, they can be seen as a devolved stage of a 'Hikikomori'; one who become recluses and refuse to leave their homes to interact with society at large."

Gosh, now I feel really bad for giving that definition! And I'm probably contradicting myself considering how I stated earlier how that type of definition would be seen as a stereotypical point of view. Hmn, looking back on this entry, I have made an interesting observation that is so interestingly observating! This entire entry has no specific topic! It just jumps from one thing to the next. Hee, and now I'm tired.

Before I go hibernate, Crawl by Veltpunch is love! I first heard it on Nabari no Ou, which I have yet to watch the second episode. I've been listening to it nonstop after getting the full version off Gendou. The repetitive guitar makes it so catchy, and love how they mixed the male voice with a female backup! Makes it all the more awesome.

Ahhh, it feels really good to let all that angst out of your system! I'm pretty sure most of you probably don't know what I'm talking about since I set the previous entry I just made to friends only. It was quite personal.

Whoo! Anyway~ After coming home from tutoring last night, I had this sudden urge to play DDR again. However, it had occurred to me that I no longer have a ps2 and DDR hasn't come to ps3 (....yet) so then I went scavenging for Stepmania and now I'm completely head over heels for it. *O* Other then the fact that I have download my own songs (which isn't a problem if the packs weren't so monstrous in size. D<) And be extremely careful whilst downloading the songs that I don't go over my download limit and waste all my brother's gigs in one day.

The otaku dream packs are really fun, and I also have the benefit of deleting all the songs, which I don't like, and that's pretty much the majority of them. >] Stepmania is also proving to be a good strengthening exercise for my fingers considering how my piano teacher said they were too weak before. I didn't disagree with her on there! I had always thought my own fingers were very long and lanky, just like the Clamp style! xD; Come to think of it, the first thing people usually say to me when I wave to them is:

"Your fingers are so long!"

I've been getting that since the early days of my year 7 years, and even now, I'm still clueless of whether or not that's a compliment. Uuuuu, moving on! I can't seem to stop listening to the Code Geass R2 opening, O2. @___@;; The song is so good, so was COLORS the first opening to season 1. O2 is such an upbeat fun song!



Watch it!
Let's watch it LIVE!

The PV is hilarious and adorable! It features the band dressed up in Edo period Samurai clothes. xD I can't really see any relation with it to Code Geass but nevertheless, the song and the pv is just a whole lot of fun! Fun! Fuuuuuunn! ^o^~

Watch here
Or here

Pick high quality for first link!! That way you can admire it better! *O*

Wow, you can't tell me that's not anything less than amazing. Best. itunes. ad. ever. The fractals, and the song, andand everything is woowwww. I can't wait to see the music video! I hope they do it in the same style, I lost count of how many times I watched it today, and the song is just so catchy! I really love the repetitive Cello rhythm. *replays* Uuuuuuu~ @___@;;;

On another note, tomorrow is Monday in my time zone and I'm not looking forward to the result of waking up. Yep, I'm one of those people who are at their worse when they wake up! On the other hand, maybe it's just a Monday thing- I don't do Mondays overall. Ergh, the thought of it is already putting me in a bad mood, grr. The ends of Sundays are always so depressing, yes? Well, not to my brother since he's a Uni student and Uni students get Mondays, Thursdays, and Fridays off in his case. Ah! I'm so envious. ;__;

Gyah, and I'm not exactly looking forward to two certain periods I have on Monday either. e_e; Period 3 & 4 double Science. It's not that I hate the subject, just the topic I'm doing right now - Physics plus, there's been a problem going on academically with my grades in this subject at the moment. I'm in the top class for Science, which is A. However, since my teacher believes that I'm struggling (base of the marks of my exam, and this single fault last week.) She wants me to move down a grade to B. Naturally I took this hard considering I'm of Asian ethnicity, and you know how in Asian families you are expected to get the top grades, right? I know it's pretty stereotypical, but that's how it is for me. I really don't want to move down, but my teacher is serious about it- heck, she even sent myself and two other girls out of class to have a meeting with the co-coordinator last Friday, however the coordinator was already in a meeting so we returned to class.

Personally, I don't believe I'm struggling. I'm aware that this is reflected off the results of my previous exam (which weren't very top notch) and this is also based off the one time my teacher decided to check our homework, and I didn't complete the second half of it due to having two exams and a deadline of two assignments to finish that week. But honestly, I really don't think she should be moving me down over two mistakes! I haven't told my parents yet, and I'm bound to be punished for it. It just had to be that one week where I was bombarded with deadlines that my teacher decided to check out work, hadn't it!? Usually I do complete all my homework, but just that one time, one time! And I'm being moved down. I really do want to prove to this teacher that I can keep up with this level of work, that I do have the potential to stay in this top class- but it's too late, she's moving me down. Those who know me in real life, know that I'm not the type who talks back to teachers, I'm too cowardly but still- even if I did try, would she give me another chance to prove my potential? I don't know. My friend has offered to help, but even she admitted that she might not even be able to suck up the courage to talk back, and convince the teacher to let me stay.

I'm really scared for tomorrow now, I have this sinking sensation in the pit my stomach, you know, it's like a feeling of unexplainable dread. I know something bad is going to happen, and it's going to happen in Science, I just know it. Although other friends and that teacher has reassured me that it would be better to move down and be at the top of the B class rather then at the bottom of the A class. They has also said (excluding the teacher) that the teacher of the B class, letscallhimSir is a much better teacher then the one in charge of the A class. That I'll have to admit. You don't really learn anything, it's all independence just like in the top Religion class. That teacher just rambles on about anything, and I mean anything! I had self-taught myself all the main elements of the topic in order to prepare myself for that Religion exam we had earlier on.

I wish my mind was more at ease. My friends keep telling me to remain optimistic for leaving the A class is like escaping Hell at last (yes, they refer to A science as hell because of the teacher, and I'll admit to agreeing with them on that.) Nevertheless, I still can't help but feel restless and discontent with myself. I don't know, to be at the top and drop so easily like that, it's just so.... Degrading. I think I should rest now, at least that may leave me feeling at ease temporarily. Urgh, I hate feeling so discontent with myself! I just hate it.

I think I may be leaning back onto my Samurai Champloo obsession again, that series never ceases to amuse me. I've actually turned to it more then once on separate occasions to clear my mind of things and forget about all my troubles, oh Samurai Champloo how I love you so~ <3

Oh yes, and Dane Cook is the funniest man on earth! He kept me laughing for hours on end, I SWEAR!!! I've seen some of skits more then once and damn, I never get tired of them. XDD;;; They are so hilarious, HEEEEEE. "It's that sound that makes you want to punch INFANTS!!" AAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Omg, his my son optimus prime is epic win. "BRRRRRRRRR!! I SAID NO COOKIES! TYPICAL BRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR"! AAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! *insert laughing spaz fit here* And the Bleach version with Ukitake; WIN. PURE WIN I SAY Actually, both versions are win. BRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. XDDD!!

Bleach Version
Animated Version

GO NOW! YERI COMMANDS YOU TO WATCH IT! EVEN IF YOU HAVE ALREADY SEEN IT, WATCH IT AGAIN. WATCH-IT! *emphasizes*

BRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!! xDD That really hit the spot after watching Grave of the Fireflies, sad sad movie. ;__; Although it didn't make me cry because I'm heartless, that movie was really touching. A real blast for the past, considering I haven't watched it in agggessss. Seita's & Satsuko's aunt has a pole stuck up her arse, I wished Seita had punched her. That'll show 'er![/violent]

Anywayy, back on the topic! What was I saying again? *reads over entry* RIGHT, DANE COOK! XDDDD Funny man, I like! Another one of his skits I really enjoyed was the 'Car Alarm' one! HOMG, THAT CRACKED ME UP SO BAD! XDD I think I mentioned one of the lines from that earlier! Haha, what really got to me was the part where he was talking about the car alarm. I can relate to that so much! Before I moved houses, I use to live in this place where the majority of the time, a car would go off right in the middle of the night! If I had seen this before I moved I really would've- wait, BOTH MY BROTHER AND I would've stood up on our beds and went;

HELLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOO I'M A CARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR~
GASOLINE MAKES ME RUN
BACK SEAT
TRUNKKKKK SPACCEEEEE

XDDD; Yeah, it's funny because it's true. Hehehehe.

LET'S GO FOR A RIIIIIIIIIIIIIIDEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

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New Bleach Fillers 168+

This is a rant on the new Bleach fillers. And other little Bleach related things. It is by your own will to read it, and I am not directing it to anyone. Nor, would I hate anyone for liking fillers.

Don't take offense to this entry; everyone has different opinions on things. :]



Huh!? . . . .Swimsuits?



HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUHHHH!???? *RAMPAGE*

Caution: Cap sprees.

( Curse of the Naruto fillers. )

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